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Monday, January 29, 2007

moii feeliing now ii realii dunno how to say. moii tears cant stop droppiing. wat can ii say now? wat can ii do now? he choose to let go lerrs. how unwilliing ii am. but wat can ii do?

ii feel the hurt, ii feel the paiin. heart was jus bleediing non stop. too manii why iin moii heart now.
Why must he treat miie sooo unfaiir?
Why he wanna choose fer miie?
Why he choosen a path tat ii dubb wan?
Why diidnt he thiink of moii feeliing?
Why end up the promise, the riing seem to meant nothiing to hiim?
Why he can jus let go of everythiing soo easily?
Why wen the tiime ii feel liike lettiing go, iishx hiim the one telliing miie sooo manii thiing, but end upp iishx hiim the one choose to let go?
Why wen ii wanna hold on, ii keep hangiing on, workiing hard fer our's relatiionshiip yet he choose to let go?
Why choose to let go after wentiing thru soo manii thiing?
Why 2 more days to our's 3 months lerrs, and he choose to let go?
Why must he pushiing miie away agaiin n agaiin?
Why must he askk moii frenz n siista to get miie n boii back tog or get miie a new guys wen he know who ii wan iishx onlii hiim?
Why till now he still dubb understand how ii feel, dunno wat ii wan?
Why? why? why?
ther's realii a thousand, a million why iin moii heart now?
ii nv blame aniione, ii nv blame hiim, ii nv blame moii mum, the onlii one ii blame was myself.
fer briing hiim sooo much unhappiiness, pressure n stress. blamiing moii self fer not beiing a gud gf fer hiim.
iishx all moii fault. iim the one who cause thiing to end upp liike tiis, who can ii still blame?
temp separatiion iishx no diifferent frm breakiing bba. iishx jus tat they are sayiing iit iin a beta way.
ii got no more chances to treat hiim gud, ii got no more chances to take care of hiim, ii got no more chances to share hiis happii n unhappiiness wiith hiim lerrs.
ii know our's story iishx cumiing to the end lerrs, jus tat ii dubb wanna face the fact, iim runniing away.
ii dubb wan, ii realii dubb wan the deciisiion he make. ii dubb wan to let go. ii dubb wan.
please dubb treat miie iin tiis way.. ii realii cannot make iit lerrs. ii realii cant hold moii tears lerrs.
where iishx all the happiiness? where iishx all the promiise euu gave?
ii realii had nv loved sumone sooo deeply before dde. but why wen ii realii found sumone ii loved soo deeply, end upp he still choose to leave agaiin n agaiin?

euu wan miie to bbe happii but tiis iisn't the way to make miie happii. iim jus goiin back to the startiing poiint. waiitiing fer ur return bba.
maybb after ii came back frm hong kong, euu alreadii wiith sumone else lerrs bba. but i'll still waiit. coz ther alreadii no space iin moii heart fer the other lerrs.

can euu understand the feeliing of falliing sooo hard, can euu iimagiine how hurt iit iishx wen out of a sudden, every promiise, everythiing becum nothiing, the whole world becum dark. ur loved one walkiing further away frm euu, wat euu left wiith was onlii the memoriies wiith hiim.

iif now ii tell euu, ii dubb wan the deciisiion euu make? wat will euu saiid? iishx ther anii turniing back? can euu please realii liisten to the words frm the bottom of moii heart mahhs? can euu please let miie deciide moii self? ii will guaii dde. tiis whole week, ii nv quarrel wiith moii mum at all lorrs, she askk miie do wat ii oso do fer her. nv show anii attitude, even after ii know wat she told euu. ii still treat her verii gud. no matter how pek chye ii am, how bad mood ii am, ii still talk to her nicely. whiich iishx tiis nv happened iin the past before dde lorrs. now she oso treat miie verii gud lerrs, liike the past lerrs. care fer miie alot lorrs, tiis whole week, she nv even scold miie at all lorrs. ii promiise ii will continue to bbe guaii liike tiis whole week dde.
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