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Saturday, February 24, 2007

todday was daddii birthday. no work today. but whole day at moii work place. coz morniing ii take sum stock down dden lazy go home lerrs. dden around 6pm go take bus to chiinatown n eat wiith moii dad, mum, bro, bro gf, sista, bro iin law, niece, nephews n cousin. dden all went to dad ktv. drink abit ther onlii. afraiid of driinkiing lerrs. dden 11.50 askk the singer ther siing biirthday song fer daddii, miie n kor kor all went upp to the stage soo paiiseh lorrs. sooo manii ppls seeiing got around 30 to 40 plus ppls lorrs. but watever iit iishx, jus hope tat dad iishx happii and realii enjoy lorrs. hehex. but he seem happii larrs.
HAPPY 58th BIRTHDAY TO DADDY!!!!

as fer miie, dubb realii feel happii. haiis. jus felt tat day by day he like treatiing miie colder n colder lorrs. like we are beiing dragged more n more further frm each other lerrs. haiis.
perhaps iim thiinkiing too much but haiis. . . dunno how to say how ii feel larrs. maybb we jus dubb meant to bbe together bba. maybb wat he plan fer the future wun have the chance to cum true lerrs bba. haiis. wat to do ? onlii can let nature take iit's course bba. . let fate deciide.
iif iit's tiime to let go, ii will let go lerrs. wun liike the past kept holdiing on lerrs.

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1:02 AM

Thursday, February 22, 2007

long tiime nv update blog lerrs. was too busy n lazy. seeiing other's blog, iishx always full of happiiness but miine iishx always full of sadness. haiis
had been moodless fer the past few day siince 14 of feb, valentine day.
tiis few day, ii dunno wat iim thiinkiing and doiin. ii was realii not who ii am. 14 of feb n 19 of feb ii went to boat quey and driink. ii driink wiithout liimiit. tiis iishx not wat ii used to do. everytiime ii driink ii will know moii liimiit n stop dde. but tiis two days, ii jus wan to get drunk. 19 of feb iim realii drunk. ii get to know alot of guy recently whom all treated miie verii gud. ii keep iin contact wiith them. tiis iishx oso not wat ii will do iin the past. everyday, ii jus hope to get drunk. coz ii could onlii cry after driinkiing, and realii who ii am wen iim drunk. moii mood was jus fuckiing bad tiis few day. ii jus wan to forget hiim coz iim afraiid one day he will leave or after ii come back frm hong kong we will still end up break off. ii tot ii could forget by doiin all tiis, but iim wrong, no matter how gud those guy treat miie, how cariing they are, no one can touch moii heart, no one can make miie fall iin love wiith them, except euu. everyday iim still sad n moodless coz of euu, moii miind, moii heart iishx still all abt euu. iim supriised wiith all the thiing ii diid recently. iim sooo fake iinfront of all ppl. iinfront of all of them iit's realii not who ii realii are.moii smiile iishx gettiing more n more fake too. the changed miie iishx soo scary, ii could hardly recongise moii self. ii was liike a body wiithout soul tiis few day. coz now euu askk miie wat realii happen iin the past few day, ii cant realii remember lerrs. ii hate the changed miie. doiin sooo much stupiid acts.
fiinally ii woke upp lerrs. no more boat quey, no more driinkiing, no more contactiing guy ii dubb realii know. jus guaii guaii dde work, seriiously go hong kong learn moii thiing, dden cum back waiit fer moii laogong to cum back. ii will onlii go boat quey wiith moii siista n jef, daddii, erzii they all dde. ii jus wanna go backk to moii old liife style. tiis iishx the way tat ii realii feel happii, n was realii who ii am, who ii used to bbe.

todday after work 8 plus go viivo meet jef, xiiang xiing, mernel, yong fa, siimon dden go down batok wiith them. wiith them ii realii verii happii lorrs. realii kept laughiing non stop dde. althought they kept lii siiao miie, but ii realii happii. ii realii loves to bbe wiith them soo much lorrs, coz onlii wen ii wiith them, iim truely happii, even ii moodless oso will end up becum happii dde. ii will bbe liike last tiime always meet them frm now on lerrs. back to moii old liife style. hehez.

LOVEs My DADDY,HONEY,ERZIs,DIDIs & NUER!!
LOVEs THe FAMILYs MEMBERs sOO MUCH.

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2:06 AM

Sunday, February 11, 2007

haiis. thiink our relatiionshiip realii ended now lerrs bba. perhaps, iit ended verii early ago lerrs, jus tat all along iishx miie who dubb wanna accept the fact bba. hiis friiendster alreadii take out moii piic lerrs, iim no longer hiis laopo lerrs bba. haiis. can aniione tell miie who am ii to hiim now? ii realii verii xiinku. tears cant stop droppiing down wen ii saw hiis friiendster and heard those hurtiing word frm hiim. how much ii meant to hiim? who am ii to hiim?
everythiing gonez lerrs bba. maybb iishx tiime fer miie to wake upp and accept the fact lerrs bba. haiis. ii hope to runaway. ii dubb wan all tiis to bbe true.
but left over was onlii moii tears n hurts. ii realii cant hang on lerrs. ii fiinally break down lerrs.
14 of feb he leaviing lerrs, iit valentiine day. ii had to pass iit alone. but even iif he iishx here, tat will still bbe a lonely valentine fer miie. make no biig diifferent.
17 days more ii leaviing to hong kong lerrs, will bbe back less dden one month tiime. iinfact, ii was verii happii iin the fiirst place, but now, ii realii hope to let go n giive upp the everythiing iin siingapore n leave forever, never cum back agaiin. too much hurts, too much sadness, too much happiiness, too much memoriies here lerrs.
maybb ii will carry on wiith moii plan. leaviing early. ii jus wanna bbe alone. runniing away frm everythiing. runniing away frm tiis place.
frm now on, thiink euu all wun bbe able to contact miie lerrs. ii jus wanna bbe alone. leave miie alone.

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12:21 AM

Thursday, February 08, 2007

wow. 8 days nv update moii blog lerrs wors. recently busy workiing. no tiime fer blog. haiis. maybb iishx gud to keep myself busy wiith moii work bba. coz at lease iit wun let miie thiink too much bba. tiis can say iishx a kiind of runniing away or use work to numb myself bba. tiis iishx beta fer miie bba. last few day got tat thiinkiing of leaviing to hong kong earlier. hope to leave bbefore new yr. but end upp change deciisiion lerrs. coz he wan to miie to stay. haiis. now our's relatiionshiip realii dunno iishx how lorrs. ii oso blur lerrs. haiis. 1 weeks nv meet lerrs. haiis. tiis whole week we onlii contact bby sms n talk on fone lorrs. haiis. dunno wat to do now oso. but he seem more happiler after we separated lorrs. maybb separated iishx gud fer hiim bba. he will realii bbe more happii bba. iif thiing was realii liike tiis. ii will let hiim go forever. iim lost, iim confused. wat should ii do??

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2:12 AM