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Thursday, March 08, 2007

been at boat quey fer the past 3 days lerrs. sooo manii thiing happen at boat quey tiis few day.
4 of feb - went down to ES. helpiing mummii out, serve the customer, driink wiith customer. table 7 dde customer soo guofen, kept jiio miie driink but wen ii fiiniish driinkiing n walk away lerrs, he nv fiinish hiis lorrs. but one of hiis frenz treat miie verii gud lorrs, concern abt miie, and still wanted to driink fer miie. quiite handsome oso. hahax. forget to take number. hahax. jkjk. dden wen closiing almost fiight lorrs. dden after tat miie, xiin n yiing went to moii gan darliing house ther to meet hiim till morniing 6 plus dden go home. wen on the way back, xiin n yiing tell miie lot of thiing abt miie n hiim dde, ii criied soo badly. keep soo xiinku n tiired over tiis relatiionshiip or should ii say xiinku n tiired over how he treat miie. haiis. now dde us was liike gettiing more n more bu xiiang boy,girl frenz lorrs.
3 of feb, he was angry wiith miie jus coz of ii dubb wanna help hiim make maple thiing. but tat day wen ii reach home ii was feeliing sooo unwell lorrs. ii explain to hiim. but he still angry, at tat moment, ya iim angry. but moii heartbroken, heartache more dden angry. iit was liike now maple iishx much more imp dden ii siick. and ii had been siick fer soo manii day lerrs, he know iit, but diidnt shown anii concern at all. whiile the one who concern n care fer miie more dde, iishx moii gan darliing but not moii bf. iit all verii diifferent frm last tiime lerrs.
ii thiink ii properly stand no place iin hiis heart lerrs bba. no longer iimp to hiim lerrs.

nowaday, we always quarrel over small matter, lame problem. siince the day he iishx back till now, ii realii gone verii crazy lerrs. everyday driink n driink n driink. even iim siick or haviing a bad gastriic paiin. ii still go n driink. iim numbiing moiiself bba. now dde miie, do thiings tat the old miie wun do. everythiing ii do, ii realii dunno wat iim doiin. ii realii crazy lerrs. frm 14 of feb moii liife was gettiing on wiith no soul. ii totally cant rem wat ii had diid iin the past few week. even iishx the thiing ii diid iin the past few day, moii memoriies toward was sooo blur. even the day ii diidnt went to boat quey, stayiing at home, the memoriies iishx oso verii blur. iim no longer who ii am.

dunno why, moii darliing care n concern more dden moii bf do, moii darliing understand miie more dden he do. moii darliing treat miie beta more dden he do.
every small liittle thiing abt miie, moii darliing all know dde. liike everytiime ii driink soft driink must take straw dde.soo he everytiime buy driink fer miie oso help miie take straw dde. he even can saiid out, wat kiind of bf ii wan, how ii wan moii bf to treat miie. how ii feel over tiis relatiionshiip, he can jus siimply saiid everythiing out wen ii diidnt tell hiim aniithiing at all. but although he kept lii siiao askk miie wen wan bbe hiis gf, but he diid seriiously tell miie once, iif can, hao hao wiith moii bf. he realii verii gud lorrs.
but iin moii heart still love eddy sooo much, but iif tiis case continue, how long can ii hold on?? or will ii gonex even more craziier dden now? haiis. wat should ii do?
sumtiime thiink tat dyiing iishx more beta dden liiviing.

ii had fallen back to the world of darkness long ago lerrs.
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