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Friday, March 16, 2007

tiis few day lots of thiing happen. on the 7th of march, miie n hiim break upp lerrs. our's story finally cum to the end lerrs. ii could forgiive the fiirst tiime, the sec tiime doesnt mean ii could forgiive the thiird tiime. on the 11th of march ii thrown away our riing. the riing once represent our's love, our's promise. once iit's meant alot to miie. but now, iit's all becum nothiing, iit's onlii represent a promiise tat beiing broken too manii tiimes and the hurts he gave miie.
now ii cant cry lerrs. moii tears had driied lerrs bba. thiink tiis will bbe our's last tiime patchiing n breakiing lerrs bba. wen ii saiid break, he seem ok. all along perhaps ii had nv stand a place iin hiis heart bba.
ii never hate euu even until now, even after euu shown miie how much euu dubb trust miie. ii was jus feeliing soo heartaches n heartbroken, all along ii had gave euu sooo much trust, even after beiing betrayed bby euu sooo manii tiimes, ii still forgiive n forget, still gave iin moii trust to euu, but end upp euu betray iit agaiin n agaiin. euu take iit fer granted.
whiile euu are the one who nv gave miie anii of ur trust, giiviing miie a reason tat ii break moii promiise fer not driinkiing aniimore, tat cause euu not to trust miie, suspect tat ii betrayed euu.
ii would realii liike to askk, who iishx the one who cause miie usiing liiquors to numb moiiself? who iishx the one who break the promise most, who iishx the one who break the promiise more seriiously? iishx iit miie? iishx iit moii fault? wat ii had done wrong to deserve all tiis?
how paiin moii heart was, how hurt ii am? no one could understand.
"sorrii, hurt euu agaiin" tiis iishx not the word ii wanna heard frm euu. ur sorrii always becum nothiing. how much trust, how much love, how much ii gave iin, iishx iit all useless? iin ur heart iishx all tiis jus meant nothiing? even those tiimes we shared tog oso meant nothiing to euu? ii triied to forget but ii cant.
look at urself, how much euu changed? now, euu are no longer who ii know iin the fiirst place. now ur bro, ur erzii, ur everythiing euu oso dubb wan lerrs mahhs? euu realii can coz of maple break all relationshiip wiith all of them? wake upp pls. euu know how much ppl worry of euu mahhs? no one wan to c euu liike tiis lorrs. ii truely diisappoiinted iin euu. ii know now the everythiing euu do, iishx not wat euu do iit frm ur heart, iit all do iit purposely dde. why must euu do tat?
but aniiway still thanks fer giiviing miie a beautiiful love story. ii will always rem the happii n perfect moment wiith euu dde.
now tat ii awake frm tiis beautiiful dream lerrs. hopiing to start a new liife wiithout euu, but can ii? wanderiing.
ii had changed alots iin tiis short periiod of tiimes, recently almost everyniite ii was at boat quey, driinkiing n driinkiing. flirtiing n flirtiing.
started to have a verii biig gap wiith almost all moii siista lerrs, except yiing n xiin bba. seem liike we are driiftiing away frm each other lerrs. ii liike no longer part of them lerrs, anii event, ii seem to out of iit, as no one iinform miie, or get to know onlii at the last miin dde.
always iim the one calliing them, they wun call miie dde lorrs. haiis. feeliing quiite sad abt tiis. ii had jus lost moii relatiionshiip now seem liike ii goiin to lost moii siista oso lerrs.
haiis. maybb iim too busy over work? maybb iim changed to sumone they couldnt accept? haiis.
now everyday moii liife was jus abt morniing slp, afternoon work, niite boat quey wiith moii gan darliing n moii gan kor lorrs.
work wiith them, boat quey wiith them, eat wiith them, play wiith them. the tiimes wiith them iishx realii verii happii lorrs. they dote on miie alots. hehex.
but tiimes wiithout moii siista iishx realii not used to iit. sumtiime realii miiss them lots, wiish to askk them out, but most of the tiimes, they got theiir own stuff to do. haiis.

iim always iin the world of darkness. . . .

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