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Saturday, May 05, 2007

2nd of may, start moii fiirst day of work at lolipop, wiith the effect frm 2nd may onward, every wed ii will bbe workiing at lolipop, pls kiindly cum down to support miie ya, c euu guy around ya. *ONLI EVERY WEDNESDAY*
workiing ther iishx quiite relaxiing larrs. other dden earniing more money, at lease can let miie pass moii tiime easiiler, not to thiink too much.
haiis. siick fer alot of day lerrs, keep hangiing on, until thursday fiinally bth lerrs, fever till 38.5. haiis. dden rest at home fer tiis two day, today morniing mum briing miie to c doctor, still the same old words, rest more, driink more water, eat medicine on tiime bla bla bla. liisten till siianx lorrs. haiis.
thiis two day alot of ppl msg miie n call miie, but all along, iim jus waiitiing fer hiis call n sms. but hiis call jus seem to bbe soo less. sms, not even one. haiis. wen he call miie ii realii verii happii, no matter how tiired, how weak ii am ii will still wake upp n ans hiis call. but now everythiing iishx jus soo diifferent.
the tiimes we talk on the fone iishx jus soo short, the thiing we talk abt iishx jus soo diifferent frm the past.
thiinkiing back of the past, ther once ii oso fever, headache, cough, sore throat stay at home rest, he called miie alot of tiime iin a day, kept askiing miie to go n c doctor, driink more water, rest more. jus care n concern miie soo much. and will peii miie chat on fone verii long. but now. . . haiis. dunno wat to saiid. thiing are jus diifferent.
today eveniing tiime he called miie, actually ii jus fell aslp, but ii saw hiim calliing iim soo happii faster wake upp n ans, but haiis. he seem liike calliing to argue wiith miie lorrs. dden suddenly dunno why talk abt tat two giirl ii was soo soo soo unhappii. haiis. he saiid call miie back lata, end upp untiil now he still never lorrs, he saiid ii nv call hiim, jus now once ii wake upp 10 plus, ii call hiim, he jus seem soo busy, talk not even 30 sec he straiight saiid bye bye liiao. haiis.
WTF. not even iim siick, moii heart iishx siick too. the paiin iishx torturiing miie every miin, every sec. iit's killiing miie. feel sooo weak now, the feeliing was jus liike dyiing soon.
iit's jus soo hard to love a person. soo hard to forget a person, soo hard to erase the memoriies tat we both shared, soo hard to face the person euu love everyday whiile euu are tryiing to forget.
ther once ii can giive upp thiing fer hiim, fulfilled moii promiise, but why at tat tiime let miie found out soo manii, realii wanderiing iishx he jus fooliing wiith miie even until now. haiis.
iif he realii dubb wan miie to work at pub, ii will stop workiing, unless he can show miie he realii love miie, care n concern abt miie n watever he saiid or do, he realii meant iit. he know wat ii wan, wat ii need verii well dde. he jus siimply understand miie too well.
iif he jus siimply fooliing miie, jus siimply dubb love miie, or diidnt love miie before, dden jus dubb care abt miie. even iif ii diie, jus siimply dubb care.

EITHER YOU
HOLD ME BACK
OR YOU
LET ME GO.

EITHER YOU
HOLD MY HAND TIGHT
OR YOU
LET MY HAND OFF

EITHER YOU
LOVE ME
OR YOU
LEAVE ME

IF YOU REALLY MEANT WAT YOU SAY,
I WILL MEANT WAT I SAY.

IF YOU REALLY MEANT IT BY SAYING YOU LOVE ME,
I WILL TELL YOU ACTUALLY DEEP IN MY HEART,
HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.

IF YOU LOVE ME TRUELY FRM UR HEART,
YOU WILL SEE WAT I CAN DO FOR YOU.

WAT IS THE MEANING BEHIDE THE RING HE GAVE ME?

I'M SICK,
MY HEART IS SICK TOO.
HEARTBREAKING,
LITTLE BY LITTLE,
DAY BY DAY.
HEART BLEEDING,
BIT BY BIT,
DAY BY DAY.
THE FEELING JUS LIKE I'M DYING SOON.

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