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Friday, June 29, 2007

fiinally break miie n alviin tog dde news to hiim lerrs. although the outcum iishx expected. but ii still feel sad. haiis.
he the one askkiing to giive upp on hiim, askk miie fiind a beta even tog he oso wun bbe a gud bf, sayiing manii n manii hurtiing words, the oso the one tat heck care miie.
but end upp now he the one telliing miie at fiirst thiink of beiing tog wiith miie but now iishx totally iimpossiible lerrs coz ii tog wiith alviin, even iif we break oso wun lerrs. now 0% to bbe tog. he even tell miie all along he dubb wanna get a new gf coz he scare ii get hurt or wat.
why? ii waiitted fer soo manii month jus fer all tiis words, but everytiime iishx all diisappoiintment. onlii until ii stepped iinto a new relatiionshiip dden he tell miie all tiis?
why all along he kept tend to hiide hiis feeliing, kept act as he dubb care, act as he dubb love, act as gamble iishx iimportant dden miie?
ii hanged fer soo long, ii jus waiit fer all tiis words frm hiim, waiit fer one day he could tell miie actually he realii care fer miie, still love miie n gamble iishx not imp dden miie.

been thru soo long, soo manii sadness, fiinally wat ii waiitted soo long cum true but iit's all too late.
ii realii dunno how to saiid moii feeliing now, one blow bby one blow, ii realii cant take iit lerrs. ii realii verii xiinku lerrs. agaiin n agaiin liike iim cuttiing off the chance between us.
tiis tiime he realii will nv cum back lerrs. ii tot ii can stop moii tears, dubb cry but now iim here shedding tears soo badly. one drop bby one drop droppiing non stop. been try not thiink soo much fer the whole day but ii cant. ii realii break down n cry liike hell.

had been telliing alviin abt all tiis, he told miie iif iishx tiime to go back to hiim dden go back. but go back? should ii saiid iishx too late or too early or iimpossiible now?
he tiis tiime realii let moii hand off totally lerrs. no matter how much ii wiish to hold back ii oso cant lerrs. he wun ever turn back lerrs.
ii told hiim he will bbe moii darliing always no matter wat happen. forever ii onlii got one darliing and tat hiim. and hope we will still stay as darliing n best frenz.
but iishx tat jus all ii wan? no. ii dubb wan jus bbe darliing n best frenz. haiis.

wan miie to giive upp on euu totally? how am ii goiin to make iit? ii dunno, ii realii dunno. been thru soo manii tears, soo manii tears and soo manii thiing, the love fer euu alreadii craved soo deeply iin moii heart. all meanwhile ii been keep hangiing on, dubb let moiiself break down, jus to waiit fer euu to tell miie wat euu had told miie ytd n waiit fer euu to turn back. but ii turned away iin the end, coz iin tiis one week plus, iim feel verii weak lerrs, been hurt throughtly bby ur every words, the hurt make miie break down totally, hope to hang on soo much but the hurt make miie fall too seriiously tiil ii cant even stand upp agaiin. ii soo tiired, soo weak to guess wat euu wan, wat euu thiinkiing. and real diisappoiinted wen tat day iim cryiing soo badly, ii called euu, but euu told miie ii gambliing now, dubb diisturb miie n jus hang upp. make miie tot tat gamble iishx iimp to euu dden miie. onlii until ahkiiat told miie tat, actually tat day euu diidnt gamble at all. why must euu bluff miie?
tiis few day ii tot ii realii can jus miss alviin, wun continue silly waiit fer ur call n msg, even euu call ii oso wun liike last tiime soo happii but end upp wen euu call, ya. iim iin a mess but ii feel real happii, still kept talkiing abt euu, still kept mentiioniing ur name.
onlii untill now tat ii was cryiing sooo soo sooo badly dden ii realiise all along moii love fer euu had nv get less before. and iit's get even more. all along ii jus bluffiing moiiself. ii still love euu, ii still cant forget euu. sorrii. ii realii fail to forget euu.
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