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Tuesday, June 05, 2007

today cant have a gud slp at all, wake upp several tiime iin between. wake upp at 1.30 liike tat coz ii slp until pek chye. haiis. ytd niite he called miie talk fer awhile dden saiid call miie back lata. but end upp oso dubb have. haiis. oso dunno kept waiitiing fer hiis call, kept wakiing upp to c got sms or miissed call anot fer wat siia. haiis. miing miing zii dao ta bu huii dao laii dde wo haii zaii deng shen mo? haiis.
today before go out nothiing to do dden go viiew our's msn chat log. ii was smiliing to moiiself whiile readiing lorrs. how silly ii am siia. dden suddenly saw a msg he send to miie at msn on april 8 moii mood totally changed n ii almost blurst out to tears.
he wrote :
i won`t brk my promise anymore le
n i will try nt make u cry anymore
n won`t make u sad
n try dun quarrel with u
luv u

after ii fiiniish readiing thiis part, iim soo down. been kept thiinkiing wat the fuck ii'm doiing? he alreadii giive iin soo much lerrs, alreadii saiid thiing till liike tiis lerrs. why ii dunno how to treasure? why must ii break moii promiises? why must ii bbe the one to request hiim to promiise miie soo much whiile iim the one tat break all moii promiises? why must ii go dragonfly tat niite? why am ii beiing soo selfiish soo unfaiir to hiim? wat riight do ii have to blame hiim or angry wiith hiim wen iim the one tat break the promiises fiirst? why onlii until now dden fiinally realiise all the miistakes ii had made?
ii realii feel liike beiing alone and thiink everythiing throughly soo deciided to take bus go work. stupiid. long tiime nv take bus. today take bus dden feel verii uncomfortable lorrs. dden suddenly he called. haiis. beiing kiiat bby wendy niid soo biig reactiion mehhs? haiis. feel soo uneasy lorrs. haiis. even more pek chye. but at the same tiime c hiim kana kiiat ii oso feel quiite happii, coz the thiing he saiid all tiis verii cute lorrs. hahax. but jus feel uneasy over hiis reactiion soo biig fer her thiing. arrghs.
crazy. dunno wat iim thiinkiing siia. haiis.
iim real real real regretted now arx.

why why why why why ? ? ? ? ?

haiis. aniione can teach miie wat to do?
hate moiiself soo much. .
ii'm realii soo stupiid siia.
no wander always saiid ii stupiid.
ii thiink ii properly bbe a moron larrs.
go bang wall diie beta siia.
liive iin tiis world oso no use dde siia.

so so so so so
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid ! ! ! ! !
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