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Wednesday, August 22, 2007

let started our's post frm friday,
friday,
xiiangho called miie wen ii was workiing
but still ii chatted wiith hiim on fone verii long.
he forgotten moii biirthday
and ii was soo angry,
he saiid moii biirthday iishx on 11th of nov,
but actually was on the 17th of nov lorrs.
ii told hiim
onlii other giirl biirthday he will rem
but always not mine.
dden he lii siiao miie saiid
he smell the vinegar smell.
tat day ii oso told hiim abt the acciident
and ii found moiiself realii understand hiim,
he ended upp wiith the reply of
" dden "
expected.
but diisappointed tat ii diidnt even heard
a word liike
" kkx, sayang larrs "
haiis.
dden ii askked hiim
wat iif the acciident realii cause miie
ended upp iin the hospital
will he ever cum down to viisiit miie
he saiid
he will,
jus to ka miie.
dden he askked miie
wat iif he cum down n had a fiight wiith alviin
dden ii askked hiim
iif realii soo wat will bbe the reason
tat properly cause them fiight
dden one of iit
he told miie
coz of miie lorrs.
dden ii told hiim
forever n forever
ii know he wun cause of miie
fiight wiith aniione.
he will coz of other giirl or other ppls
fiight wiith others
but the one will nvr bbe miie.
ii know nvr iin hiis liife.
dunno why,
after tat ii became to bbe soo moody.
felt soo unhappii.
haiis.
after work went back to 8teen wiith customer
ended upp beiing shouted bby chriis
realii feel soo bad n unhappii.
haiis.
friday jus a bad day fer miie.

saturday,
met alviin before work
and ended wen ii reach moii workplace,
and found out moii wallet iishx lost,
hopefully,
alviin help miie fiind iit back,
iit dropped at the road siide while iim waiitiing fer cab.
on sat nothiing realii much happened.

sunday,
not workiing,
stay at home and help out wiith the prayiing.
dden slp siince sunday miidniight till monday morniing.

monday,
went to work at 7pm.
and after work went to meet alviin,
dden nothiing much happened too
dden went back home at 5am plus.
iit's xiiangho biirthday,
called hiim and msg hiim
wiith no ans n reply,
been waiitiing fer the whole niite fer
hiis reply or call
but still ended upp wiith diisappoiintment
haiis.

today. tuesday,
not workiing
but customer askked miie to go down,
as to keep them fer keep cumiing
and to entertaiin them,
ii went down.
dden leonard oso came down,
even kiiat kor kor frenz oso came down.
hahas.
quiite happeniing fer miie.
hahas.
dden he called,
once ii ans ii scold hiim
sayiing tat he dunno how to ans
and reply msg ytd huh?
dden he saiid he was sleepiing
and nvr go out at all on hiis biirthday.
dden after not long
he saiid lata dden call miie back.
after tat,
ii went down to geylang,
at fiirst goiin liips
soo ii msg hiim
askk where iishx he,
dden he called
saiid he was at home
settliing sum problem wiith hiis new fone
dden ii saiid
whiich giirl soo gud
buy fone fer euu
dden he saiid
iishx sumone ii dunno dde,
started to realii get jealous and angry
dden ii told hiim
anii problem wiith hiis new fone
ii dunno how to settle
askk hiim askk ah kiiat
dden sumhow consiider had a quarrel wiith hiim.
dden went back to meet yiing to have our's supper,
dden talk abt new year stuff
dden she saiid
next yr new yr dde chu er we go driink
and tat make miie thiink of xiiangho
tiis yr dde chu er
our's fiirst tiime meet out of geylang,
and can consiider everythiing started on tat day.
haiis.
dden suddenly wat yiing told miie
realii briing the hurt back to miie,
haiis.
she told miie
the tiime wen ii went to dragonfly dde iinciident
she can see tat he was realii verii heartpaiin
bby how he reacted and wat he saiid.
haiis.
briing miie back to the sadness,
the hurts,
the past
and the tears.
ii almost criied out.
hopefully,
ii can still bear wiith iit untill ii typiing tiis post at home now.
jus now ii told yiing,
ii was wanderiing iif once ii break upp wiith eddy
and ii tog wiith xiiangho
wat will happened now?
will we still tog?
she saiid she thiink we will still bbe tog bby now,
but will always argue or quarrel.
haiis.
ii dunno.
all sadness,
misses,
regret,
unhappiness
cumiing back to miie agaiin.
today ii was liike crazy kept thiinkiing abt
the memoriies wiith hiim.
yiing told miie
iif tat tiime ii diidnt deciide to bbe wiith alviin,
maybb now miie and xiiangho alreadii tog lerrs
or maybb go back to how we used to bbe
iin the past.
dden ii told her,
iishx he the one always pushiing miie away n away,
she should know,
before miie wiith alviin
till miie wiith alviin,
fer tat one week plus
everyday
ii was cryiing over hiim,
agaiin n agaiin non stop,
ii realii hate tat
he always tend to hiide hiis feeliing,
why must until ii wiith other lerrs
dden cum tell miie
he actually thiinkiing to bbe wiith miie agaiin
tell miie all along he siingle jus coz of miie,
jus coz he dubb wanna hurt miie.
haiis.

LENG XIANG HO,
ii hate euu.
hate euu fer always hiidiing ur feeliing,
why iin the fiirst place,
dubb tell miie euu ever thiinkiing to bbe back wiith miie agaiin,
dubb tell miie all along
euu siingle coz of miie
always want miie to guess.
always let miie tiired of guessiing.
hate moiiself after soo long,
still cant forget euu,
still cant put euu down,
still love euu as much as before,
still liviing iin the memoriies we both shared.
hate moiiself always too late or too early,
still always thiink of euu,
still always criied fer euu.
moii love n feeliing fer euu
iishx realii gettiing out of control recently.
why mux euu always
make miie jealous?
make miie angry,
make miie sad.
why mux euu always
make miie waiitiing fer ur call n sms everyday?
always call miie wen euu are happii
and after tat wun even sms fer a few day.
even until now,
euu still makiing miie guessiing
wat euu thiinkiing and how euu feel.
ii realii tiired.
wen can euu realii tell miie
wat euu realii thiinkiing
and how euu realii feel
and who euu love?
haiis.

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