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Thursday, August 16, 2007

monday,
moii fiirst workiing iin carls code,
not bad there.
but still not used to iit at all,
too strict,
too manii rules.
the rules make miie not realii verii happii workiing there.
iim sumone who dubb liike
beiing tiied upp bby rules.
tat make miie
miisses 8teen ever more,
still 8teen the best lorrs.
workiing there
was soo carefree,
no rules to tiied miie upp.
aniiway,
jus work fer the mean time bba.
iit's a confirm tiis pub ii wun stay long,
waiit ii fiind a new pub,
ii will quiit here lerrs.

tuesday,
second day of work,
jery n hiis frenz came down,
after work,
at fiirst plan to go n have our's supper.
but end upp,
dunno how jery driive till acciident,
lucky iim fiine,
diidnt get iinto hospital
or get iinto the coffin.
but the accident
realii frighten miie fer a while.
ended upp
super heartpaiin lorrs,
take cab home moiiself
and the cab fare iishx 23.50.
plus cant claim back wan lorrs.
arrghs.

ytd jus went to c doctor,
haiis.
dden slp fer the whole day,
frm ytd 1pm plus
slp till tiis morniing 7 plus dden wake upp,
dden whole morniing nothiing to do,
all along,
usiing com lorrs.
bored.

today morniing,
saw sumone siigniing iinto msn
wiith the niick
of friday and tuesday.
make miie thiink of hiim.
thiink of the lame thiing he saiid iin the past.
and ii tot iit was hiim
or should ii saiid ii hope iit was hiim.
ended upp,
iit not,
diid feel quiite diisappoiinted.
haiis.
iif one day he realii changes hiis niick to tiis,
iishx iit representiing iin hiis heart,
he still rem miie?
haiis.
thiink too much,
tiis day wun cum dde larrs.

3 more days to go,
hiis biirthday liiao.
still dunno wat to buy fer hiim yet.
askked ah kiiat kor kor fer adviises,
but wat he told miie iishx
askk miie not to care abt hiim,
he saiid,
he onlii know how to gamble,
maybb even hiis biirthday he oso will forgotten.
haiis.
iit's oso truth larrs.
he recently realii gamble till crazy liiao lorrs.
agaiin back to liike last tiime.
haiis.
realii tiired of all tiis.
dunno wen dden he will know how to thiink.
jus hope he will know hiis liimiit.
haiis.

wen ii met the acciident,
ii realii hope to tell hiim.
but end upp ii diidnt do so,
was wanderiing will he ever care or concern,
or do he have the tiime fer miie?
iif tat acciident realii cause miie end up iin hospital,
will he have the tiime to cum n pay miie a viisiit?
will he bother?
haiis.
tat day bbeen kept askkiing moiiself,
should ii tell hiim?
how will he react wen he heard tat?
ii diidnt have the courage to tell hiim,
iim soo afraiid he will react diifferent frm wat ii expect.
frm how much ii understand hiim,
ii know he would sure say sumthiing liike,
" aiiya, ni si bu liao dde larrs. "
or
jus say
" dden "
dden soon after tat he will say
" kk. wo deng yi xia zai da gei ni larrs "
or maybb
the outcum will bbe
ii cant even have the chance to say abt the acciident
dden once he piick upp the fone
he would say
" wo xian zai mei you kong, deng yi xia da gei ni "
or
" wo zai du qian, deng yi xia da gei ni "
dden end upp wiith not calliing back.

the outcum would confirm bbe sumthiing liike tiis
or even worst.
he confirm wun say sumthiing liike,
" huh? dden nii ok mahhs? "
" you mei you shou shang? "
" you mei you shi? "
confirm wun saiid sumthiing liike wat ii hope to heard.
the most he will onlii saiid,
" k larrs. sayang larrs "

iif moii guess iishx riite,
ii fiind iit poiintless to tell hiim.
coz iit will make miie diisappoiinted
sad and unhappii.

ii dunno why,
soo manii ppl telliing miie
iif ii still love hiim
jus go back to hiim,
even alviin told miie tiis oso.
but iishx was liike too manii thiing between us,
they all realii dubb understand at all.
they all wun know how much thiing we once came across,
how complicated iishx the thiing between us,
iit not as easy as to say go back
and could jus go back.
take a verii siimple questiion as example,
was liike iim verii clear tat iin moii heart
he still exiist,
ii still love hiim.
but to miie iin hiis heart,
iishx there miie
do he still love miie
or had he ever loved miie
all tiis iishx jus a questiion mark.
haiis.
no1 will ever realii understand dde.
maybb onlii jieyiing,
coz she the onlii one knowiing the everythiing tat happened between us.
but onlii she could understand more abt love.

haiis.
the hp chaiin he gave miie,
start to get rusty lerrs.
haiis.
maybb sumtiime,
wen iit tiime fer miie to let go,
ii shall let go.
haiis.

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是不是该放手？

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