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Saturday, April 05, 2008

iit's been so long ii had stop blogging .
today ,
moii mood will realii so down .
jus feel like writiing down all moii feeling .
goiin 10 mths with alviin on tiis 27th le .
ii nvr expect he will said break .
iin the previous 9 mths ,
so manii thing ever happened ,
he had nvr say break ,
but today he had said .
on tat moment i jus totally blank ,
ii dubb even know how to react .
moii tears jus blurst out like the tap ,
moii heart realii shattered iinto pieces
n could realii feel the pain .
ii dunno what to do .
totally lost !!!!
once he had ever promised ,
nvr will he said tiis word .
but haiis .
hiis word follow by
realii liike push miie to the bottom .
he said he was sianx of relationship !!
ii could mend back for tiis tiime ,
dden what abt the other tiime ?
iif he gotta say tat word again ,
what should ii do ?
iim so afraid ,
so afraid he would say iit once agaiin .
ii had realii forgotton
how manii hrs ii had cried .
moii head now was jus fking pain
liike iit's goiin to blurst .
iim afraid to fall aslp ,
iim afraid when the next day ii opened moii eyes ,
he iishx alreadii gonex .
ii dunno how to descript how ii feel now .
jus know moii heart iishx paiin liike hell .
suddenly ii recalled another hurtiing words frm hiim jus now ,
sayiing he could bear to leave "her",
he could do the same thiing to miie .
he know ii doesnt like to be compared wiith her ,
but he did iit today ,
whiich iishx the past few mths he doesnt do iit b4 de .
what had happened ?
everythiing goiin so worst .
ii dubb wan iit to bbe tiis way ,
ii wan iit to bbe the relationship tat last till the end .
ii had even thiink of waiitiing hiim out
n tog agaiin .
even he always say wun contact miie iif he out
but what ii will do iishx gotta find him out .
but now can everything still be possible ?
seem liike faded far far frm miie alreadii .
moii tears had dried ,
but moii heart still bleediing so badly .
thiinkiing of the past ,
so hard but so sweet ,
so manii problem but still so loviing ,
finally iit's all peace ,
but the sweetness n loviing iishx no longer here between us .
can we still be like the past ?
ii realii dunno .
iim so afraid beiing lefted over by hiim ,
so afraid he would jus step out of moii life aniitime .
10 mths of love ,
iif one day ,
he realii leave ,
how can ii jus let go so easily ?
how can ii get over all tiis ?
ii gotta bbreak down bby dden !!
all along ,
he jus standiing miie till soo xinku ,
realii so failed iin beiing a gf .
listeniing to bei ji xing de yan lei ,
still rem what he had said ,
iif he not around ,
listen to tiis song n thiink of hiim .
iif one day he realii leave ,
ii thiink ii wun ever listen to tiis song agin .
at tiis moment ,
ii seriiously hate moiiself ,
feeliing so sux .
ii got no mood to continue aniimore .
stop here bba!!!!!

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