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Friday, May 30, 2008

27 of may ,
we was out to diit pub to celebrate our birthday .
ii wasnt verii happii siince the moment ii reach home ,
whatever ii askk hiim ,
he was showiing miie hiis attitude ,
but ii keep quiet ,
ii told moiiself ,
must bbe understandiing ,
coz he's too tired n not eluff slp .

can say thru out the whole niite ,
at first iishx still ok .
until ii saw jolin ,
was talkiing to her ,
suddenly her's fone rang ,
n askked miie to talk to her's frenz first
whiich iishx oso customer last time at studio pub .
after tat ,
he saw n he get so angry wiith miie ,
ii dubb wanna quarrel ,
so ii go say sry to hiim ,
but end up iit's get even more worst .

after tat when we at cab we goiin to other place ,
iit's seem peace agaiin ,
when ii reach tat place ,
ii told hiim not to driink too much
iif not lata he vomiit agaiin ,
end upp he reply miie was ,
" ni guan wo "

after tat when ii was outsiide talkiing wiith diit ,
suddenly he msg miie n told miie
he go to ho meng house n askk miie go home moiiself .
ii ran over to chase hiim ,
he saw miie n yet he still went upp the cab ,
ii realii didnt expect ,
he would throw miie alone at one place .
after tat we msg-ing all along ,
he told miie not to act ,
ii nvr expect ,
moii sadness ,
moii tears
n moii heartbroken
to hiim iishx jus actiing ,
iishx jus a way to make all hiis frenz sympathize miie .
he askked miie ,
do ii know how ii treat hiim iin thiis one yr ,
half of hiis feeliing fer miie alreadii faded ,
n he realii wanna break off wiith miie .

when ii was readiing all those msg ,
moii tears dropped down ,
ii cant tell how paiin iit iishx ,
ii cant tell how hurt iit iishx ,
but ii could tell tat moii heart realii broken ,
realii shattered iinto pieces .
ii dunno what to do ,
what ii know was jus criied n criied .
ii begged ho meng to giive miie hiis address ,
but he didnt wan to ,
at tat tiime ii feel so helpless .

ii went down to jalan ho swee ,
searchiing all over to fiind ho meng block ,
ii dunno how long ii walked ,
at tat moment ,
ii realii feel so afraiid ,
ii was at a place iim not familar ,
ii dunno whiich way to go ,
ii jus walk n walk .
especiially when ii started to feel so weak
n ii realii feel ii cant breath .
ii get more n more afraid ,
at tat moment ,
ii was feel like ii faiintiing aniitiime .
fiinally ,
ii found ho meng block ,
n when ii saw hiim ,
iim realii calm down ,
but he jus pass miie the fone
n he went off .
when ii walk upp ii realii fall down ,
but when ii look at hiim ,
he didnt even turned back n take a look at miie .
moii heart was even more pain .

ii realii dubb wan thiis relationshiip to end ,
forget iit ,
ii let go of aniithiing ,
ii let go of moii control to hiim .
as long as he beside miie ,
ii williing to let of everythiing .
even he realii have another gf ,
ii will jus act as dunno n accept iit ,
as long as he tog wiith miie .

ii dubb wanna another break lerrs ,
ii dubb wanna to lost hiim agaiin .

until now ,
ii still cant forget the pain
n the hurts .
ii jus wan to bbe happii tog wiith hiim ,
iishx iit so hard ?
Or perhaps iishx all moii fault ,
ii shouldnt have treat hiim iin thiis way .
he told miie iif realii wan hiim to happii ,
ii should let hiim go.
should ii realii let hiim go ?
ii dunno ,
ii realii dunno .
can ii realii williing to let hiim go ?
ii know ii cant do iit .
iishx he realii so unhappii beiing wiith miie ?
lettiing go iishx iit our's relationship onlii way out ?

why thiing gonex so worst ?
all along ii had been thiinkiing ,
we realii verii tough fer us to get tog ,
thiis relationshiip will bbe verii strong
as we had gonex thru so much tog ,
but how cum thiis relationshiip jus so weak ?

" iif one day ,
we realii break upp ,
will euu ever thiink of miie ?
will euu ever thiink of to mend back ?
will euu ever thiink of the happiiest moment we shared ?
will euu keep miie iinsiide ur heart ?
will euu ever shed a tear jus fer miie ?
ii realii wanna know how important am ii iin ur heart ? "

iif moii leaviing ,
will make u live happier ,
dden jus let miie bear all pain n hurts ...

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