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Monday, May 26, 2008

erm ,
what word should ii use to descript moii life recently ?
erm ,
can saiid tat iim happii
but wiith some worriies
n sadness .
recently ,
at tiimes ii felt he loved miie so deeply
n doted miie so much ,
but at tiimes ii felt hiis love fer miie
seem liike faded alots .
n at tiimes he would suddenly throw hiis temper on miie
when ii didnt even diid aniithiing wrong .
at tiimes ii felt so happii n blessed,
at tiimes ii felt so sad n worry .
iim afraiid tat soon
hiis love fer miie will faded totally .
iim afraiid he would say break once agaiin soon .
ii realii hope nvr agaiin he would say thiis word ,
the last tiime tat he saiid thiis word ,
ii almost goiin to break down ,
almost gonex crazy .
ii couldnt take iit one more tiime .
hope iit's realii wont happen agaiin .

secondly ,
ii realii feel sry fer moii suspect toward hiim .
ii triied not to bbe so sensative ,
ii triied not to check hiis fone ,
but ii realii failed to do so .
all along ,
iim some one tat verii sensative ,
small little actiion ii will get suspect ,
n will thiink lots .
since ii had met the 3 guys iin the past ,
ii get even more sensatiive .
first xiiaoboii ,
beiing wiith hiim fer 2 yrs ,
iit's truth tat he didnt betray miie before ,
but behide moii back ,
he was msg-ing wiith lots of giirl ,
when he iishx back to moii house,
he would deleted all the msgs ,
onlii until ii checked hiis call log ,
dden ii would get to know .
secondly iishx eddy ,
beiing tog wiith hiim 5~6 mths ,
behide moii back ,
how manii tiimes he had betrayed miie ?
not jus 1~2 tiimes ,
but iishx 4 tiimes .
fiirst jerica ,
the first day we tog ,
he could still use candle
to make a heart shape&i love u word fer miie ,
n still huggiing miie telliing miie tat
he's serious wiith miie .
the sec day ,
he's end upp meetiing jerica wiith jef behide moii back .
third day ,
early iin the morniing he alreadii wiith jerica ,
went fer their breakfast .
dden eveniing telliing miie break .
until the day we patch ,
he told miie ,
he will nvr leave miie agaiin
n lots of other rubbish ,
but end upp ,
first wiith hong yiin ,
doiin so manii thiing behiide moii back ,
love bite ,
f~f . . .
second ,
suzanna ,
dden eileen .
after tat xiangho ,
8 mths dunno bluff miie damn lots of shiit ,
until now ii still dunno
what he saiid iishx truth
& what he saiid iishx lie .

iim not tryiing to compare hiim wiith them ,
jus tat after beiing cheated so manii tiimes ,
ii becum more sensatiive dden before ,
coz ii realii afraiid beiing cheated ,
beiing hurt once agaiin .
iit's was realii so paiin ,
knowiing ur loved one had been cheatiing u all along .

ii realii hope he could understand moii feeliing .
after been thru so manii thiing ,
beiing cheated so manii tiimes ,
iim not as strong as the past .
although ii always seem to bbe so crazy ,
so happii ,
but behiide all those smiles
iishx jus sadness .

ii realii realii wouldnt wan to triied out
anii new relatiionshiip agaiin ,
ii realii jus wan to bbe wiith hiim all the way .

Pls ,
I hope this relationshiip will last 4ever .
Pls ,
Make hiim come back to miie after his case settled .
Pls ,
Dubb let miie liive wiithout
alviin chua .

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